My Story | Milwaukee Boudoir Photography
Guess what internet world? I am a boudoir photographer! Yes, I take those kinds of pictures of women and I couldn't be more proud of it. Because here is the secret to those kinds of photos: the experience has very little to do with outward appearance and everything to do with a woman's inner strength. I have first hand knowledge...I have had boudoir photos taken of me on two separate occasions and I plan to keep doing it. As a boudoir photographer, I have heard some of the most amazing stories behind the why women have these photos taken of them. Their stories are so inspiring and I am incredibly honored to have been chosen as their photographer. Here I will share my story….
"While many woman have boudoir photos taken to give to their significant other, they always find (as I have) that a boudoir session is such a personal empowering experience. This style of photography celebrates a woman's beauty, her sexy and most importantly her confidence. It is such a gift to see yourself from a new angle, new light and new perspective." - Chrissy
The first time I hired a photographer to take these intimate photos for me, I was motivated by needing a gift for my husband. I have a photographer friend that I trust who was offering up sessions, and I decided to go for it. As I shopped for sexy things to wear, I constantly doubted myself. What was I doing? I was in my early 30s. A mother. Not thrilled with how I looked in a bathing suit. I still needed to loose 10 lbs. -- all the usual self-deprecating excuses we all have. But I shied behind a few hidden veils as well. I was two years into premature ovarian failure, which meant I could not have any more children and my body was in the throws of menopause. Yes, menopause -- that word that most people do not understand and women don't worry about until well into their 50s. And I was in it at 31 years old. It was a heart breaking and life changing blow. And a blow I mostly dealt with internally and always privately. I was living this very foreign reality of mother to a small child, feeling super hero-esque for carrying, birthing and now raising such a beautiful being... to suddenly my body betraying me and feeling like a foreign shell of disappointment, pain and weakness. And while many women of traditional age power through menopause with grace and poise, I was in no such position. I suffered from terrible hormonal imbalances and depression. And worst of all I felt disconnected from my body and completely out of any comfort zone I could conjure. So what was I doing? I was regaining myself. I was having someone capture me from an outside point of view so that I could look at those photos and say "oh there you are" when I looked at them. And I wanted to make myself proud. For putting myself out there in such a vulnerable way after going through so much. I was terrified...would I even recognize myself? And the truth is, I didn't. I did not recognize myself at all. But it ended up being a great thing. Because the person I saw and the person I felt as I was participating in the session was way more badass than I imagined. Parts of who I am that I had overlooked or forgotten about came through in that session and in those photos. I was silly and spontaneous. I was brave and open-minded. I was confident and fierce. I was beautiful. And all those reminders stuck with me...through the week. Through the month. Through the year. And still today. Now I can say and feel, I am silly and spontaneous. I am brave and open-minded. I am confident and fierce. I am beautiful.
I have come to understand even in my young 36 years on this planet, that often times I learn the most about myself and what I am made of by stepping outside my comfort zone and putting myself to the test. It is always scary and sometimes emotional, but also so profound. So my why: to make myself proud. And as for how I felt feel: BADASS!